Gigantic Figures

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As I approached these 2 gigantic figures and was only in view of their backs, I thought to myself, so interesting to see the bare figures including their butts…and just at this moment, I heard the comments of this little girl, 哈哈, 你看他们的屁股, 大大的, 嘻嘻!…

While I had thoughts to myself, the little girl verbalized her thoughts…kids are frank, aren’t they? They say what they think without considering about the reactions of others. Not saying that this is wrong, just that I can’t help but envy the fact that it is fun to be a child. In a normal situation, as a child, there is no need to hold back your thoughts…you can just do or say what comes to your mind…

However, as soon as we transform into adults, we realise that this world is not accepting of people who verbalise their thoughts…and especially for those who say the truths. We have seen how some were being shunned, because they spoke the truths and many preferred to listen to sweet nothings. And so in order to avoid being deemed as a social outcast, some try to conform to the norm, leave the truths in your heart, speak what others yearn to hear…sweet nothings.

As I evolve, I also get to see it evidently in all parts. And how useful to have such a skill, whispering sweet nothings just to get what you want. I mean it as a real skill for survival. And of course, we need to have counterparts who enjoy hearing such as well…to dwell in these moments, to dream in such moments…

It’s alright, to do away with what one believes in right from the start. After all, this is all about living. Maybe I’ve been watching much drama lol. Both in reel and in real.

I am once more amazed at the longest period of time I took to buy a pair of boots. I decided not to get it here. After all. Went to IMM one day, and thought that it’s not often I made such a trip to this mall, I might as well take a walk in the outlets. Perhaps I could find a nice pair of boots? True enough, I found my red boots. Yup, I want to be like Red Riding Hood, wearing a red hood and a pair of red boots. The red boots were just nice for me, with the height and such. Loved them so much. Only problem is the alignment of my heart with my mind. I was in the shop for more than 30 minutes…paraded in front of the mirror dozens of times, and I liked what I saw in the mirror. So why didn’t I get them??? I believed that the shop assistant couldn’t believe what I was doing…I literally was like walking around in boots within the shop for more than 30 minutes?…Crazy lol.

As usual, I asked several questions about the boots. And since I couldn’t make up my mind, I decided to walk around the mall first hoping to have a clearer mind towards the end. And so I stepped out of the shop…and continued my way…and well, 1 hour later, I was just so exhausted, I didn’t yearn for the boots…I left the mall. I knew I would get a pair elsewhere not locally anymore.

Fast forward, many hours later, I felt some discomfort on my feet. I usually don’t have discomfort in this area as I have been very cautious in wearing just flats for years. And I concluded that the discomfort was due to the pair of red boots. So those reds were not meant for me after all…

I wasn’t in a hurry to get the pair of boots. I already have a pair of good snow boots, and here I am just yearning for something more…while at the same time I couldn’t make up my mind I decided to just leave things as they were. I don’t want to spend money buying something extra when I can’t convince my mind, and worse, end up hurting my feet in the end. Now I realise, when I notice something amiss, I do not make any haste decision. And the very act of not making any haste decision is the act of making a proper decision itself.

So to conclude…I do not want to make any decision in a haste, just so that I conform with the norm, just so that I become part of the society, just so that I appear to be normal…

Even without this pair of red boots, I am happy…maybe because I know that I will definitely find my one in the land that I love…?…?…

While I ended up with nothing from the mall, I gained a lesson on myself… and of course, lesser money spent! Yo 😄