Whenever I do such tests, I get similar results. So even if I do not want to trust the credibility of the tests, I still have to face the reality of the results. The root still remains the same. I am me. And that’s why I process pretty much the same way year after year.
Having said that, we still face changes in life. I have plans, but I do know that my plans will only move with God’s provision. And yes I know it’s true. Every time I go to the crowded car park, I say a prayer to God. And voila! I have a parking lot vacated just for me. Still remember that day I almost gave up hope at the quaint eating place. And there my friend was saying that in such a situation, if ever I get a parking lot, it’s akin to striking TOTO/4D, that the lot is indeed meant for me. I was still dissing at his comment, that such a good thing would not happen to me…lah…and then the next moment, a car vacated from the lot in front! Couldn’t believe that good things could happen…to me…I still tried to say that the lot was meant for the car in front…not me…I don’t want to fight with the car in front…the lot belonged to the front car…blah blah blah. Oh well, so I deliberated for awhile, while my friend tried to make me see his point. The front car made no movement…5 secs…OK. I got it. The lot is mine INDEED 😄😄😄😄😄
So how is this parking incident related to changes and my plans in life?
Firstly, I recognise that I have a plan to go and eat at the place. The plan requires some changes because I feel overwhelmed by the huge amount of car within the limited lots. I psycho-ed myself that good things do not happen to me. At the same time, I said a quick prayer to God about the situation. But still, I was very half-hearted about it. And then viola! Ok, got it.
And yes, I plan a lot. Many plans. I know it’s amusing that I have Plan A, Plan B and Plan C. And I also have 5-year Plan, 10-year Plan, 20-year Plan. Oh haha haha…and seriously, I really think that my plans can work out…! But of course, I need God’s blessings, huge amount of blessings!!!!
One weakness about me is my procrastination. I can really take my own long sweet time to move…so, I need to find motivation for me to move…my butt. On a daily basis, I think I shake legs most of the time, nothing better to do right? But well, once the time is ripe, I believe that all things will fall in place, properly and happily. So, please fan my motivation, let me know that it’s better to exercise than just shaking legs. 😎
Left and right. Right and left. You may have been so right and that’s why I left. I am sure, it’ll be happier for other people to think that they are right, rather than me insisting I am right. I don’t like to waste people’s time, so I might just as well let others be right..and they feel happy and stop bothering me.
Do things really work in this way? I may have very simplistic thoughts. To me, taking the left way will lead me to the same destination as taking the right way. The only difference is the sights I get to see and the feelings I encountered. I am happy with the sights now, and the upcoming sights. So I have no intention of taking another route at this moment. In fact, I am hard to be convinced. Or rather, I am obstinate.
But isn’t this what most people encountered? People only want to see what they want to see. Take for an instance an incident in the lift. I walked into the lift, without realising that there was someone who wanted to get out of the same lift. So yes, I was the rude one…and the someone who wanted to get out of the lift was the daydreaming one, for this person didn’t make the step to move out when the lift door opened. What was she waiting for? Waiting for the cows to come home? Duh. Never mind. So I was in the lift, and she wanted to get out. And this blur me realised what I had done, so I tried to press the ‘Door Open’ button for her. But because I was too slow, both arms carrying tons of grocery, I wasn’t able to stop the lift door from closing on her. I was worried for her, for she would be in pain, just as I put myself into her shoes. Well, she turned around, and angrily asked me, ‘Do you mind!?’ I didn’t quite get her, because my intention wasn’t to let the door close upon her. I tried to help, but I didn’t manage to stop it on time. She didn’t know, but obviously she misunderstood my whole intention. She thought that I pressed ‘Door Close’ on her. Oh well…she’s just being offensive or defensive…I don’t know, but to me, I have tried doing what I could do to help…and of course I failed in my attempt, but failures do not discredit my intention. So I leave it to God. God see my heart in doing so…the simplicity of my thoughts. At this moment, I realise, that many people have very complicated thoughts. It’s not that they are thinking too much. But I think they are thinking with anger, with sadness, with greed, with jealousy…and many other negative emotions. I don’t want to have a partake of such emotions. Not that I am a saint. I do encounter such negative emotions. But I try to steer far far away from them and not dwell in such feelings. For they disrupt your life.
I see what I want to see. Yeah, skies, mountains, snow. ⛅🗻❄