Yokohama is a refreshing change from the clustered city of Tokyo. I am glad that the ride to Yokohama doesn’t take up too much time, and it’s a nice area to explore. Some parts of it resemble my homeland, but the feeling is totally different. Perhaps I am a visitor, so I don’t feel certain vibes.
I remembered going to this museum and an elderly man told me he didn’t know I am a Japanese who don’t speak Japanese. I knew he sounded flabbergasted, but I was also equally frustrated. It was very strange of him to insist I am a Japanese, to him. The other elderly folks are nice, and usually expressed their surprise to discover that I am not a true blue Japanese. Oh right…do I need to tell them my entire clan history??? While I do like Japan, I don’t like them to insist I am with them, while I am not with them. Oh, what am I saying? Have I been confused???
Anyway, getting around Japan is easy. At least to me. I guess that my years of trips to Taiwan have helped me a lot, because I have grown to be much more aware of my surroundings. And Taiwan bears much close resemblance to Japan. Only exception is Japan has multiple train lines and tracks that may overwhelm an infrequent traveler. But by and large, as with time, one should have no problem familiarising oneself with the system and the various local sights and regulations. I miss Japan a lot, and I am very thankful that God has blessed her generations of people. A 6-year gap from my last visit. I am thankful for all the nice people I’ve encountered along the way.
I have my plans. And seriously, I don’t know whether they will work out in the end. I may be in my own dream world. But aren’t we entitled to invent based on dreams? Hmm….
God bless. And truly, I can only commit all plans to Him. I may be late in realising and perhaps progressing, but nevertheless, I believe in arriving in my dreamland eventually. Seriously, I don’t want to live my life full of regrets. Should I not cross my hurdle just because I deem it as rocking the boat? I have to take the step, and start stepping, instead of being stationary at the same position admiring the scenery. Ah, as if there is a beautiful scenery indeed!
At times I wonder, have I always been very family-oriented? Do I look like one who is very family-oriented???…
I remember a friend. Always eager to have a family. And yet threw the family away when the interest waned. I can still remember the enthusiasm shown. Comparatively, I am totally cold…towards the notion of a family.
I love my own family. My parents, siblings and child. I just find it hard to accept anyone else into this inner circle. Yes, I do not want. And thus it’s hard to accept. I wonder, do I feel problems accepting this fact, or the other person has more problems accepting this fact about myself?
I want to think of myself as selfish. I can’t find a better word than this term. I like to share with my loved ones. And I can freely give my loved ones…almost everything. But, seriously, I think I have not been able to accept other loved one (s). Haha, that should be a singular, not a plural. I don’t have such a big heart to contain so many people after all.
I don’t like to get into mundane lifestyle. But does a dynamic one suit me after all? Considering the fact that I’ve encountered such a huge turbulence during my good years, and moving forward, being happier and free, do I want to place myself into a turbulent lifestyle?…
Few years ago, it was suggested to me that I’m having a mid-life crisis. Hmm….actually I am just thinking much too deeper and deeper…for more than a thousand, million times. I enjoy thinking, but at the same time, I dislike thinking. Killing my brain cells every now and then, does that seem like a joy to me?…
It’s good to take a leisure boat ride along the Yokohama MM21 area. I most likely won’t be visiting this city again, at least within the next 5 years…since I will be venturing to other parts. It’s interesting to note that while I have 2 friends who married the Japanese, one dislikes Japan a lot, while the other has all praises for Japan…
So, what does my heart tell me? Can I simply trust my heart? …given that I’ve also changed or progressed during these 6 years.
Smiling with the thoughts
Lovely and such
I see the white clouds
And my heart flutters…
Interestingly I think of poetry only during the times I see Japan. Seriously, I must have been such a romantic at heart! 🙊🎋🍃🌷🌿