I am a tough nut to crack.
I may be crazily loyal, yet insanely fixated upon issues that dealt with my values and beliefs in life.
Sometimes, I feel that the world has been spinning around me, and I am the one who has not moved a single bit. Does this sound good at all?
My heart pains for the issues I hold onto dearly. But why do I keep encountering moments when I feel as if I am nothing but the biggest fool of this world? Are all men greedy and fend only for themselves?
Perhaps I should not try to think anything for the world, for people around me, for the future. It should be a good feeling to just amass what I desire and not care a hoot about the future that I am going to be in. It should be a great feeling, shouldn’t it?
There must be a reason why God allows me to see this. And the reason is definitely a good purpose in the end. I have no doubt. Just that at this point of time, I am unable to see anything much. It’s a blurry vision for me, and I have no knowledge as to where I should start. Maybe that’s why I am utterly upset at this moment in time. I should not be thinking too much for others. What about myself? Can’t I just throw my values and beliefs away? Can’t I evolve to a stage where I don’t even recognise myself anymore?
It’s simply a switch of perspectives. Isn’t it so? Be a villain, an angel, a Machiavellian. Is this so difficult???
I have many thoughts. Do I have to act upon all?
Was watching something, and realised that 2002 was a whooping 13 years ago. Seriously, I don’t remember anything much of Year 2002. It’s a nice number though, a mirror image of digits. Well, regardless of whether I remember those days, I am in the present, so my question to myself: Have I grown? Have I glowed?