Time is a very important element in my life. A precious and sacred commodity, one that disappears fast without fail. Nah, I am not God, I can’t control time. And hence I tend to divide my time by trying to allocate sufficient time for people I hold close to my heart.
Lately, there’s a change to this arrangement. Priorities change, new events and people, new tasks, new roles, new experiences, ……, I think, we all enter into different phases in life at different rates and timings. When i was younger, I gave time to everyone around me, except myself. As I discover new things, I realise, I need a lot of time, for myself. And now, having years of me as the center of my universe, it’s a high possibility that I find difficulty to adjust to the original concept. While this is a difficulty, it doesn’t signify my unwillingness to part. But there are times when I have important things to handle, I cannot tend to everyone’s needs and wants. If I can, the weekends will be good. But there are times when my hands are just tied and I cannot.
Not everyone operates on the same mindset. It’s hard to coordinate with the timings. And what’s more, it depends on my desires as well. However, reality seems to be quite different from what we expect, and humans are just humans after all…and I am a human as well, not a computer programmed EVA machine.
While the thoughts may be good, such as having Little Twin Stars as a guardian angel, I do wonder about how the rest will turn out. Perhaps, just like one friend pointed, I’m one who always meet head-on with changes, and I handle many changes within the same period of time. Oh gosh, I am indeed such a high-risk taker! I must have the most naive mentality in this world, that everyone can accommodate to my changes as well!…
If I still view me as the center of my universe, I can be known as Sunny Island soon…an island, just an island…ah! Sigh.
Like is always easier as there’s no need for me to tolerate nonsense. Love is harder as I must like ALL about the person, including his hairstyle and shape of his face! (Not to mention his intelligence and all other important aspects as well)