I miss this blouse, so I ransacked my wardrobe just to find this. Well, if I really like something, and want something, I’ll set my heart and mind to get it… Isn’t that me some light years ago???
I was so persistent to find a certain item, that I walked thru the town, all their outlets, just to find that item. I believe, up till now, only one friend remembers this incident. How I miss our days together! We’d so much fun then…though life wasn’t totally carefree then, we didn’t encounter much nastiness in the real world…and we were learning how to navigate the various web browsers, using Netscape Navigator (oh my goodness, that’s really ancient!) and using Internet Explorer…we spent a lot of time together, though in between someone came in between us…but I’m so thankful that up till now, we’re still the same friends!…
I really miss my friends…it’s just so comfortable to be with friends…no pressure…real friends.
I know I’ve to snap out of the Kdramas. LOL. The current one I’m watching really caught my eye for its storyline. Not those rom-com. In fact, the aspect of romance was quite lacking in this drama. But I totally love it. Because it exposed how real some people could be. Which of course, having encountered them, I do know that such people exist.
Sometimes I also wonder, if one can just reach home, eat, sleep and then go to work…day by day…how would you feel?
Maybe, after all, it’s good not to think. Just go with the flow, let life just brings you along. Really? In this way?… I don’t really have a definite answer for this. I’ll still trying to figure out myself. Maybe because up till now, I’ve not really wanted something so much till I can’t breathe…hahaha. Sometimes, I try to emote, and maybe that’s why I try to watch more Kdramas. I’m totally not a drama person, especially towards Rom-com. I like the detective kind, the analytical kind. Well…I need to prep myself right? And so watching such Kdramas is a preparatory course for me hahaha!
Seriously, I think this world has many unhappy people. Unhappy…regardless of anything in their life. They can be very rich, but feel empty and unhappy. They can be holding good posts, but feel empty and unfulfilled. They can be surrounded by their SO, but still feel empty and unhappy. They can be having many friends to laugh and gossip with, but still feel empty and lonely. Why? … I do not understand. Beyond my comprehension.
Most often than not, due to such states of emptiness and unhappiness, it resulted in them wallowing in some deep dark thoughts…and they start to scheme, plan, manipulate, abuse, coerce, ……
Maybe to me, things are simple. Just thinking of such people gives me headache. They keep telling people that they are happy…but you know deep down, they aren’t. They keep showing people they have this and that and they are being loved…but you know deep down, they aren’t. I’ve seen how people can just use a person when that person is living in delusion. Isn’t it easy? Just say the things that one likes to hear……
It’s true, we only want to hear what we want to hear. Hence we have selective hearing and attention span as well. Try listening to people…real people.
When we evade question, it’s done with a clear purpose. Whatever the purpose is, I actually think, the person who questioned would know. That is, provided that the person who questioned is courageous enough to face up to reality. But then, it’s human nature to cover up with plenty of excuses, not the time yet, not enough, not sure, not ready…At the end of the day, isn’t it more simple to say ‘I don’t want’?
I’ll get a knock on the head. People aren’t simple la. Why would they say ‘I don’t want’ in such a straightforward manner?! Ok, I’m a straightforward person. I don’t beat around the bush, waste time, play hide and seek, play peek-a-boo and such.
Ok, but lately, for some people and towards some people, specially, I’m considering an alternative approach.
My dream: Smiling sweetly