Me no bullet train.
Me no charging bull.
Me no blind mule.
I realise there are some types of attraction I can’t resist. But it’s obvious to me that I know, within that moment. Just like how I love my freedom, how I love my lodge, how I love my dreams…I realise, where there’s an attraction, it’ll be a constant nagging thought…after the hectic moments. I used to not to live. I didn’t know I wasn’t living then. I used to not to roam. I didn’t know that wasn’t a norm. However, I knew and know that nagging thought, that constant pull and tug, that fluttering sensation. It’s easy to just cast that aside, as I do behave much like a robot. But I do know, and recognise the huge differences in how I feel, what I feel. I definitely don’t want the other party to be of ‘use’ to me. How do I really put it? I agree that love needs no reason. I don’t love a person because the person can offer me something. This isn’t a transaction. Never was and never is in my dictionary. Can’t I just simply enjoy that time and feeling???…For me, I will never forget that moment of ‘feeling’. Why?…because I like to indulge in the moments. Hmmm…does that make sense???
It’s interesting to note that i feel.
Me, my steps are just like the tortoise. I really can’t move any faster, and I don’t want to move faster. Why must I, when I am very happy with my own pace? I hate it when people say, hey hurry up, hey keep up with the pace. Why shouldn’t I tread on the road less travelled? Why can’t I like what I like?
🙂 Of coz, I can 🙂 That’s why I don’t like it when people like to compete. And the worse, compete with me??? For what?…This really doesn’t prove anything much. It certainly doesn’t mean anything to me either. To me, I’ve always like Lego, and if Megabloks has a higher market share, it doesn’t change my affinity towards Lego. Well, in this case, even if Lego doesn’t get its market share, I’m still fine, because I discovered, that right from the start, I like stuffs like Sylvanian Family and Playmobil. I thought that Lego was the toy I liked so much since I spent much time with it. Well, no…I’ve always been more attracted to the likes of Sylvanian Family and Playmobil. Isn’t this strangely funny?
What baffled me most was still the fact that people insisted I liked Lego so much that they never knew my likes were the other two 😦 😦 😦 And actually, I wondered why they didn’t know! O_O
Hard to figure. Yes and No.
I like people who take calculated risks. And I like people who have plenty of real experiences to share, really living a life, and not merely fulfilling society’s expectations of themselves.
I need that time. Till then.
My life with dreams, love and family 🙂