Greyish blue top
Navy blue cardigan
Drowning in blues and blacks. I hate this, in Spring. I am a Spring person, hence being in dark colors isn’t my cup of tea. I wish I can stop this. But my heart and mind are fighting. I don’t like this.
It’s the waiting time that I dislike so much. I am a patient person, but that doesn’t mean that my patience can be stretched beyond limits. There will be a day, when I am decided that, this is it.
I don’t understand about competition. Does that give people a high feeling? I always think that it should be more for the love than solely about winning or owning. Maybe I can never understand such mentality that’s so different from mine, so different from the way I’ve been brought up with. I don’t like to compete. If I’m ever in a competition, that’s because I enjoy the activity, rather than the so-called prestige or hunger of it.
Most people prefer the latter two. Me? I would see myself as odd then. Sometimes, I’m just so tired. To me, whatever you want to think, so be it. So be it. I don’t like to talk, explain and convince. So what if you win? So what if I lose? So what if you lose? So what if I win?
Does it really matter???
I realise, people only have power over you when you mind about win or lose. That’s what I see when I have bickers with my mum at nonsensical issues. When I stopped, hey presto! She lost control of me! Well, sometimes I do engage in competition struggles just to piss some off and see their reaction. It’s very funny to observe people’s reactions. I like to be an observer. No, no, I am not as sneaky as a Scorpio who views others as prey. I just like to observe…I see myself more like the Snow Owl 🙂
Yeah, what a quiet me-time I have! Finally! I really can get crazy if I lack me-time. I need plenty of me-time for the coming month. I think, I am selfish in this area. I am not willing to share my time. I cannot be too soft on this, I want it to be my time.
My life with dreams, love and family 🙂