Bought this cotton Mango Dress many months back. Intended to wear during CNY. Ended up having enough clothes to last me, hence I only started wearing it now. I love the light cotton. So comfy in humid weather. Despite the fact I hardly sweat. I love how light this piece is.
Mood has been getting better. Perhaps it’s because I’m looking forward to something. I don’t know. I guess, that we have our low and high moments. I just don’t want history to repeat itself. Maybe this time round, I can handle such low moments better. Anyway, who am I? I’m a ball, bounce bounce bounce……..!
When I heard the thunder yesterday, I really felt as if the loud roars were from God, God was angry, people were crying. Almost went into a poetic mode. I guess when days are cooler, my mood changes as well. I remember the trip out in the cool park in Hokkaido. I remember the indication of the temperature. I remember the serenity of the park. I remember the soft sounds of the nature. I remember……how I wish I remain behind!!!!!!!……
Certain memories I can’t erase. They are rooted deeply in my mind, and my heart. I can’t forget. They are just too pleasant, just exactly what I want and what I love!!!!!!…Why can’t people simply understand this? Why don’t people understand that there are people like me, us, who simply want a simple happy life???????? Seriously, I don’t need a tv, a computer etc. I just need the cool serene calmness of the nature in Hokkaido. And the nice people I’ve encountered…I just love the place.
Oh well. Yes, years have passed by. But my perspective hasn’t changed. It still remains the same. I keep asking myself, what do I like? What do I want?…sometimes I get distracted as well, by all the sounds all the sights all the lights. What do I really like???
I guess, before I really can ascertain this, whatever I pray would be with half-heartedness. What’s the point then??? Waste of God’s time to listen to my prayers. He should hear the prayers from others who need His guidance more than me.
Many things have happened. I’ve thought and contemplated. I’ve planned and changed. I’ve heard and reverted. I’ve dreamt and realised. But I’m still not very decided on the final. To me, at this stage, I’m still at a small crossroad. Perhaps I should just go with the flow and see where God leads me to. He’ll be there with me, right?
Just learnt from this drama that your soulmate need not be the person you spend your life with. Oh?…?…Hahaha, I used to be termed the soulmate of a particular person, and yea, I seriously only thought of this person as my good buddy. Unfortunately, most people have various definitions and tend to confuse soulmate with other terms. Maybe we were all confused. Oh well, some form of reflection from this drama. I like this drama more than the previous one, though the first I watched was simply hilarious. Maybe this drama reminds me of being back to the basics and think simply don’t be clouded by all the various fears and doubts.
However, at the same time I’ve been wondering whether some people still behave as if they are in the olden days. We do progress right???
(oh my! I look so plump in this dress!)
My life with dreams, love and family 🙂