Chiffon Floral top: New Look White work pants: Zara
Finally, I have some chance to update my wardrobe. I hardly wear pants these days. To date, I only have 1 pair of G2000 workpants and the latest Zara white. If my memory is right, I used to love pants alot. And jeans too! Now? I’m only in love with frilly frocks and leggings. Strange.
I really must get down to doing stuffs. Friend reminded me again, to clean my aircon, despite it being brand-new. Okie, I know. In life, isn’t it wonderful to have friends and family who keep reminding you because they care about you? No man is an island. I’m thankful that people keep a lookout for me. I know that I’ve been independent for long, so much so that I tend to overlook certain stuffs.
I like the way things are. No constant treading on the minefield. No moments of wonder and torture. No incessant complaints and mindless competitions to be embroiled in.
I like the way things are. No comments of how much items I have bought, places I’ve been to, amount of time I spent on chatting with my close ones etc.
I like the way things are. Cooking the stuffs I love to eat. Japanese, Teochew, Italian. Baking the items I love to see. Cookies, cakes, pizzas. Sewing the things I want to use. Hankies. Skirts. And such.
My life is just that boring, isn’t it so? I’m fine with it. Because I always love the cottage country feel, life is simple at its very best. I can have many things I want in this world and still feel bored and such. I can have people around to fill the time and space and yet still find that I yearn for independency. I think, I’m a tough nut to crack. Not now I know, definitely, I’m just not willing to give up any of what I have now, for sure. I have this freedom, and I cherish this freedom LOTS. I dislike being bonded, to anything, anyone. Some may say that it’s my newfound freedom. Wrong. This is something I ought to have, some decade ago, till I was being tricked into a blatant lie that I didn’t have much interest in, had I not have a good heart. (Good is what I say for myself, about myself; I am bad, as much as I want myself to be, for people I do not love.) I know what I want. And I will proclaim. Likewise, I have to say more of what I do not want. These days. I believe that prayers work. I have been given too many situations where I saw my prayers answered. Many times. There is no doubt about it.
I read that we’re gonna see some shoebox flats on this sunny island. Yes, Japan has plenty of that. I like them in Japan. Here? I don’t know. It’s always great and exciting to be in Japan. Here? I can’t say the same. Only good thing so far is we don’t have natural disasters such as earthquakes and tsunamis. Apart from that, are people fleeing Japan? Her people are still there, aren’t they? Foreigners are different. They can just pack and go when they like. Likewise with any foreigner in any land they do not grow up in. Not all foreigners are like this. There is also a group of them who love the country that they have not grown up in. And this group has been so loyal and committed due to the generosity and kindhearted treatment they have received from the locals. It’s always a struggle when you think about it in this way. For people who have conscience and know what’s grateful and being thankful, it’s very hard to leave. You don’t just leave people when times are bad. You don’t just leave people when you see them in trouble. You will want to stay on, help them, face the adversity together. You just want to be there, for them, with them. Won’t you? Don’t you?
Maybe I’m too simplistic in my thinking. Maybe I’m too naive in what I view of this world. I’m as childlike as what I see of this world. Why should I view this world so complicatedly??? Aren’t people tired of always plotting this and that, watching behind their backs and around them? I never understand this part, and hence I can be as oblivious to everything including those whom I used to stay for long within the same matchbox. Perhaps such people feel happier living their lives this way, whining, complaining, criticising, comparing, competing….and much more? I don’t know, I just feel happy the way things are, the way I am….it’s not money, not things I have, it’s that state of mind…
Call me Simpleton, never mind 🙂 Call me Ah-Q, never mind 🙂 I don’t mind being dumb…. What’s the point of conquering the world? …….This trip has set me thinking……
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