Sigh. Have I ever changed???
Why do I look the same like the me of a few years ago??? ……
While I say I need some kind of change, what sort of change am I talking about? Habits, personality, attitude, style, or ……??? Maybe I feel bored with the same me. I do feel bored. Despite having so many things to occupy my time now. Despite having so many goals to achieve. Haha, for a moment I wonder, why is my clock ticking so fast? Is it a race against 2012???
We talk about 2012 with mixed feelings. Everyone keeps saying about the end of the world since dunno when. I rem, back in 2000, there’s also this big talk of end of the world. And before 2000, there’s also this talk about the then alive Saddam Hussein was the one who would end the world. Hmmm…so many speculations over the years. Who are we to say, yup, the Mayan were right in their calender? That yeah, the world is ending in 2012. It may not be about the end. End of the world per se. But perhaps end of other sorts of meaningless things?
Having said that, perhaps it’s better to be wiped out in that entre freak seconds. Just don’t prolong the suffering of seeing the pains of our loved ones, whether we be alive or not, it doesn’t matter. What matters, is don’t prolong. When I see my loved ones suffer, I feel sad and in pain. When they grieve, I grieve too. When they get bullied, I would stand up for them. I don’t believe in suffering in silence. It’s just a matter of who gets the last laugh. It’s so damn easy to manipulate some who are so dense in their minds. It’s so damn easy to implant certain thoughts and beliefs in the minds of the weak. How many strong minds have we seen these days? Definitely in the minority. Don’t ask me where I get my statistics. At least my unrecognized statistics don’t produce nonsense. Having spoken to numerous types of people, it’s not a difficult feat to identify the mindless ones right from the start. And for that, I’m very mindful. I love programming. Human minds can be programmed to some extent. Gurus may counter argue, but psychologically speaking, yes, we can implant certain things…
Because I know, I’m very wary of the information I receive. I’m a collector of information. But perhaps God’s really fair, I’m not being blessed with the gift of retention. I can’t retain all information. And hence, most of the time, secrets are really safe with me… Because I can’t retrieve them from my mind easily, they’re just being dropped to the bottom of my mind…forgotten…However, one surprising thing is, when giver reminds me of that, I’m able to recall…weird mind…good or bad?
I love Apple Green. I simply love Green. Except for muddy green. I love green grapes, green leafy veggies, green pears, green clothings, greenery..:) Ahem, green hat in the figurative way? Nope, I kick such out LOL.
Arghhh…I’m not done with what I’m supposed to buy yet. So many dozens of things!!!!