Pink top from HK and Blue skinny from Zara

I think my fats are spilling from this top and bottom. I hope that I don’t look like a hippo, or the three layered meat. Lol I love the top, so comfy!

Wow, the expats are indeed well-informed. So many of them went to look at the barang barang items. My friend and I would not have known of this place if someone didn’t recommend us. Interesting. I love the wooden stuff, but then too much of them could be overwhelming. I don’t know. I was wowed by the tiles too. These days, tiles and marble look similar. Anyway if I get the Balinese look, it’s real hard to match the mood…I think I should stick to the Japanese type…oh, please be focused!

I know the colors I want. I guess, I have to really make use of my color-designing skills here. Keep praying, keep wishing…keep hoping…

Kinda tired, after going to a few places. We looked until we seemed quite sick too. Lol. I still have a few more months to go. Pray that the timing is just right. I want that. I want. By hook or by crook. I’m a spoilt brat. How many times did I spoil myself silly??? I’m doing away with plenty of things. Are they worth it? I really hope so…

The sun will still rise as usual tomorrow. I’m letting go of the stars…so that I can feel the warmth of the sun.

God says, ‘Let there be light!’

Okay 🙂

Polka dots top

Shouldn’t some people be awarded with the Golden Horse or Globe award for being such good actors?

How did they manage to hone their skills? Pursuing their hidden agendas over the years.

True, it’s none of my business. I have my own dreams to pursue. Basically, my dreams are just so close to me at the moment, that once I start the 1st plunge, everything will just move accordingly. Why am I so confident about it? I believe in God. That God is the one who looks after me and gives me courage to face the truth and build my dreams. I believe that with my heart towards God, all dreams shall bear the goodness of God. For this, I strongly believe in that. Because it has happened 2 or 3x in my life. I’m too scared not to heed God’s words now. Yes, I still have questions in my mind, logically, it’s scary. But it’s not really that tough. Spiritually, it’s definitely achievable without any doubt. The only factor here now is: Time. The Big Time.

Haha, my heart is almost leaping out with excitement. And by 2012, I think it’ll be something I really feel super happy and delighted! I have to make sure I guard my heart. It’s not enough to say that yes, I practise God’s words. I must resist other temptations in life.

It’s really the timing. As impatient as I am, I can’t speed things up if God’s not willing. He has a reason. I am sure of His reason.

So what if others deem it being silly and I’m foolish? I’m not born out to please anyone but God. The good friends I have, see my logic and understand my thoughts and concerns. The others may just sneer, criticise and compare. Is there really such a need to share with people who have such bad habits in life? I wouldn’t want. Not any part of my life.

I like to think of myself as the infamous 诸葛亮. Haha…

My plan is committed in God’s hands. Hallelujah!

Follow the North star and soon I’ll reach the King of kings!

Polka dots top

Shouldn’t some people be awarded with the Golden Horse or Globe award for being such good actors?

How did they manage to hone their skills? Pursuing their hidden agendas over the years.

True, it’s none of my business. I have my own dreams to pursue. Basically, my dreams are just so close to me at the moment, that once I start the 1st plunge, everything will just move accordingly. Why am I so confident about it? I believe in God. That God is the one who looks after me and gives me courage to face the truth and build my dreams. I believe that with my heart towards God, all dreams shall bear the goodness of God. For this, I strongly believe in that. Because it has happened 2 or 3x in my life. I’m too scared not to heed God’s words now. Yes, I still have questions in my mind, logically, it’s scary. But it’s not really that tough. Spiritually, it’s definitely achievable without any doubt. The only factor here now is: Time. The Big Time.

Haha, my heart is almost leaping out with excitement. And by 2012, I think it’ll be something I really feel super happy and delighted! I have to make sure I guard my heart. It’s not enough to say that yes, I practise God’s words. I must resist other temptations in life.

It’s really the timing. As impatient as I am, I can’t speed things up if God’s not willing. He has a reason. I am sure of His reason.

So what if others deem it being silly and I’m foolish? I’m not born out to please anyone but God. The good friends I have, see my logic and understand my thoughts and concerns. The others may just sneer, criticise and compare. Is there really such a need to share with people who have such bad habits in life? I wouldn’t want. Not any part of my life.

I like to think of myself as the infamous 诸葛亮. Haha…

My plan is committed in God’s hands. Hallelujah!

Follow the North star and soon I’ll reach the King of kings!

Sweet feminine dress from Joop

I’m amazed that I can actually look feminine in this dress. Haha! But I think, I’m getting fatter and broader. The waist, the shoulders, … Ahaha, growing pains???

Woke up with a stiff neck. Aching badly ever since, though with medication, I seemed to be better. Perhaps I have a high tolerance for pain and everything. Including irritants. I still function as per normal, nothing seems to affect me. I must have been an angel! An angel who has fallen from the sky because of my frankness. My inability to pretend. My inability to be fake.

Finally it rained heavily. But I don’t think it’s gonna be a long night of heavy downpour. If only the rain is being replaced with snow! Wow 🙂 I would be so happy!

It’s still rather fuzzy for me. I really like it. I don’t want to keep thinking and planning. Things will fall in place, don’t they? I’m not that into brands. I can forgo many stuffs in my life. I believe, that I like to try things at each phase of my life. Once I’m done with that phase, I start anew…in a way. Perhaps it’s the circumstances that made me so much into brands. Perhaps it’s the lack of motivation that made me wanna fly? What can tie me down? What can make my heart be set on it?

It’s the feeling, isn’t it so? Don’t we go according to our feelings, how we feel at that moment? I ask myself, can I just go with feelings and less of logic?….

In the past, friends would never see me making decisions on feelings. Now? I’m so much into my feelings that I want to put my feelings into my desires…sounds crazy…but I rather trust my feelings than real logic. Why? Because others don’t like to think logically either. What’s the point of thinking logically and in the end, become an unfeeling person? It’s good to feel and desire. That’s when we feel like humans, isn’t that so?

Don’t blame me. I may have loved and felt. It’s a simple choice for me all along. Now I’m embarking on another, not by my wish of forsaking the former, but the circumstances of it do not permit. I took a plunge when I’m bored.

The silver and white combi

Festive mood? Silver and white. A great color for Christmas, as always. Silver bells…silver hair…silver lining 🙂

Halloween’s soon here again. Isn’t that fast? It’s a dilemma. Do I really want the time to fly? It all depends on the occasion. I like the cold winter days. I feel more at ease with cold, since I should hibernate…hahaha. It’ll be true next year. As I’ll definitely be hibernating soon. Very soon.

Summer times make me more easily frustrated. I don’t like such feelings. Sweating is fine but not such temperaments of the heart. I like the cool, slow, peaceful type lol. I’m slow and dense. Most of the times. Well, that’s me hahaha, as stupid as ever, as usual. I like the movie Forrest Gump.

Inception is the only movie so far that has me wowed over. It’s definitely super fantastic! That’s actually quite similar to the concept I had earlier on. The different layers of the dreams and their interconnectivity.

It’s nice….very nice….maybe it sorts of reminded me…that dreams can become realities, if we desire for it so much…

Whatever…the dreams must come true.

At all cost. But in God’s will and with God’s blessings. Apprehensive? Yes! Most of the times, it’s the timing. Just like I like Honda Crossroads so much earlier on…now? Hmmm…somehow it doesn’t strike me that much now. Haha, change of hearts here and then. Maybe some things remain constant. Colors? I like metallic pink. Practical? Metallic silver and platinum blue? Masculine?

Lol. Build my dreams so that I can fly. Follow my plan so that I can reach. Smile in grace and laugh in joy. God’s the factor in all my life. I answer to Him. And He knows my heart. The plans I have, I commit all to Him.

And YES, I’ll be answerable to God myself

I don’t care what others think. At the end of the day, it’s me, who’s answerable to God myself. For all my deeds and thoughts. Negative or positive, I try my best to be the child of God. I don’t succeed all the time. I do fail. I am not perfect. Hence, do not expect me to be perfect. I’m not clever, hence don’t expect me to know all the right stuffs. I’m not sensitive, hence don’t expect me to always think for you. I’m just me.

What do I need to convince myself with? I only need the directions from God. He who knows me best and well. I find solutions, I find choices, but I don’t make all decisions alone by myself. In the past, perhaps so, because I place God away. God seems to be in the far distant, that I didn’t take time out to hear Him. I didn’t have enough me-time and we-time. I need space. Plenty of space but I didn’t have.

Clearer pics with great and nice alternatives. But it’s such a scare to tread on the unknown. But the unknown seems to be nice and inviting as well. Perhaps, it’s a transform from the dark nights. The light makes me feel good. I don’t like to be bogged down with mundane meaningless squabbles. Regardless of whatever excitment it might bring. Need excitment? I love doing all the outdoor stuff. Need fun? I love the water…….hahaha…yes, I do. I love water sports. I really must take up my friend’s advice. Why should I just let my fears overwhelm what I want to do? It’s high time I do more things for myself.

By that, I’ve to give up some things in life. It’s very sad. Very very sad. But if God permits, it will come by my way. Else, it’s alright, isn’t it so? My focus and priority in life must be right. I cannot just be distracted and forget about important things.

Focus. Focus. Focus.

Looks like I am chanting? LOL

Yup, I have to, since my phone is DYING! All things are dying….seems that expiry date is up for almost all of my stuffs along the same period of time. Should I laugh or cry?

Dress with mustard bottom

I love this piece of dress with this color and frills. However, I also noticed that I look so much fatter in this. Hahaha, does it matter? No, it doesn’t, since it doesn’t bother me. What am I bothered with? Nothing much. Except values and beliefs of people in life. But why should I be bothered? Because I think of the chain effect. If I can save only one, it’s better than none. Because that one can help to spread the goodness, and thereafter we have the pyramid effect. The same happens for the badness. Hence it’s extremely important to guard ourselves from the evilness of mankind.

Alas, all of us fell short. But it’s no excuse to just attribute it to that. The fact that we are not perfect doesn’t mean that we give up trying to do things well. But the term ‘well’ means differently across. What does the term mean to you?

Successful in life in what areas? Materially? Psychologically? Intellectually? Socially? Personally?

I…long for a big space, preferably a large field for me to run and hop. I…long for the vast space, preferably with ceilings high enough so that I can breathe properly and not feel stifling. I…long for open space, so that my eyes are not cluttered with unnecessary things.

It’s strange. But that’s me.

I hope to attain my dream. And I intend and hope to make it a dream that’s to be realised and for the goodness of the people I love. When I do things with a reason, I’m quite convinced that I make the right choice. It’s just like what happened years ago. It’s not easy to be convinced. And it’s certainly not easy to take the first step out. But I believe, that with patience, eventually that’s the right choice. It’s strange. I feel as if I’m treading on the unknown. However, it’s pretty exciting at the same time. Sometimes, I can be so focused on one, that I missed the others and in the process the right one.

And funny thing is, I do give up when I feel pretty sick of the process…and then I start anew. Maybe that’s really not the one, after all. If that’s the case.

I love mustard, both the color and the taste of it 🙂

Cotton On: Again?

Yea, I buy cheap stuffs. I like to wear casually. And this is different from sloppily.

I believe, we all have our dignity. But some just choose not to give much weight to it. To each his own, I can’t interfere. I have my own dreams and fantasies too. Should I build upon them, or should I just let go, because things might be tough ahead?

I’m very tired. I don’t like to be in all the stupid crappy races that mankind has made. Why must we be embroiled into meaningless and mindless pursuits? I don’t want. I just want peace and harmony.

Does it matter? I need to rethink. Maybe I need a break again. I need a breather?

It’s just so noisy. In this world. I don’t want to conform. Why should I think so much, too much and worry so much? I don’t want. I just want to think, decide and act. I dislike all the processes. I like means I like…does it hold any meaning? This is super subjective. It’s dependent on the feelings, the chemistry…I don’t know. I only know that I really really want to accord my decisions based on likes and dislikes. At least, it won’t go wrong, as compared to my rational mind. Lol strangely it sounds.

Tired, means I need to sleep.

夢なさい